Sensya na kung ngayon na nga lang ako gagawa ng update, wala pang kwenta.  Hehehe...

Lilipat na ko ng blogsite.  Pero hindi naman ako gaanong lalayo kasi tabulas pa rin.

Notify ko na lang kayo sa bagong address.  Magandang araw!

Of course I should feel jealous...  But I'm not.  Hahaha!

A couple of hours ago, my girlfriend sent me a text message.  She let me know that her seminar has finished and also informed me that apparently some guy from the seminar gave her some flowers.  The way I understand, an anonymous guy asked someone (maybe a friend) to hand it to her. 

Normally, a man would go ballistic and utter words like, "You freakin' slut" or "I'm gonna burn his house down" or "That guy's friggin dead meat."  However in my case, I was actually proud of my girlfriend.  No doubt she's beautiful and attractive.  I feel like climbing Mt. Everest and once up there I'm gonna shout on top of my lungs:

You all want her,

but she's mine...

Mwahahaha!

Yes, she's mine.  And you can't have her!  

Lately, I've been feeling something.  I don't know what it is but I'm pretty sure that it's something negative.

Pressure, Pressure 

My academic requirements are starting to take its toll on me.  An exam tomorrow, a report the day after and another exam on Friday.  Just thinking about it makes my head spin.  Sure, if this was just any other sem I'd say, "Hey what the heck.  Fail or not fail, I can still get another shot next sem."  But this time, it's different.  I can't afford to fail or else I'll be doomed to spend another sem in Academic Imprisonment.

My father loves to tell me stories about his co-workers' daughters and sons who have graduated in ECE, CoE or EE -- sort of making me feel regretful on my decision to shift to Geodetic Engineering.  Out of the blue he'll start something up like, "You remember <insert officemate's name>?  <His/Her daughter/son> graduated <ECE/CoE/EE> from <insert school name most probably not UP>.  Board passer!"  Sure, I can just shut up and ignore his remarks but I noticed lately that he has intensified his You-Must-Regret-Your-Decision routine.  He even discouraged me from working at provincial offices where Geodetic Engineers are most in demand saying that professionals assigned in such offices are "patapon" or "pinag-lumaan na."

Don't get me wrong here, I love my father very much.  But things are getting more difficult these days, I could use a little encouragement.  "No discouragement" is "good enough encouragement."

I hate discouragements even if they were meant as a joke.  Churchmates were asking me earlier today about the time of my graduation.  I tell them, "Next sem."  Some were reacting like, "Okey" and "Oh how come?  Delayed ka?"  But one particular person reacted like, "Yuck!"  Sure, I was just smiling like it was totally fine while she was repeating "Yuck" a couple of times.  Had I been in a bad mood, I could've...

Anyway, I wasn't in a bad mood but I ranted all the way to the church office.  One particular churchmate, Ate Carmi, heard me and told me "Take heart."  She understood me completely because she has experienced U.P. College of Engineering herself.  Her encouraging words helped me shrug off all the negative feedback that got stuck deeply into my nerves.

Missing People 

It's normal to miss a handful of friends every now and then.  However in my case, I miss my highschool friends, churchmates, blockmates -- almost every single acquaintance I've made for the past ten years.  Ah, the good days.  Ngayon ko lang na-appreciate ng ganito, ansarap pala maging highschool at freshman...  Friends were always at mere shouting distance.  Some were so near, you don't even need to shout.

Focus 

There are some things that keep preventing me from achieveing my desired goals.  I feel like there's currently a lot missing -- things that I've been forced to set aside in the name of good academic standing. 

One of which is my Sining (ART).  I don't get to doodle on my Sketch Pad anymore.  My Photoshop and Flash skills are getting rusty.  And to top it all off, this Blogsite's new layout remains unfinished.  Doodling was my favorite past time ever since the day I learned how to use a pencil.  Now, I can't afford to doodle that often.  Time is a valuable resource and doodling will take time.  Whoever said that "Time is Gold" doesn't really know the true value of time.  You can choose to save gold for later use but you can't do that with time.  If you don't use it now, you can never use it again later.